GROWW E-Mail Newsletter

14 August 2003

Circulation: 574

Volume 1, Number 10

Editor

· Pat Sirni

Associate Editor

·     Margot Hill

Newsletter Staff

·     Angela Dyer

·     Lori Petersen

GROWW Officers

·     Anne D’Ambrosio, Executive Director

GROWW Staff

·     Libby Morningstar, Director of Branches

·     Pat Sirni, Grief Recovery Room Manager

·     Rachel Frank, Message Board Manager

·     Phil D’Ambrosio, Director of Security

 

Message from the Executive Director - Anne D’Ambrosio

 

I would like to thank the Michigan Gathering committee for the outstanding job that was done and for the generous donation that they gave to GROWW.  Due to the success of their hard work and dedication they were able to donate, yes donate $452.00.  From the bottom of our hearts THANK YOU.

Here is some information on Gatherings that you may be interested in.  They can be put on by anyone, there is no GROWW involvement in it, maybe some day if we have a big windfall, we could have a GROWW sponsored gathering, but I don’t see that happening anytime soon.   There are so many people all over the country and the world that if 2 people or 20 want to meet somewhere and have lunch or dinner or have a weekend event that could be a gathering, go meet people in person, get real hugs and see new friends.  I wish I could get to all of them, but that’s not possible, I’m not independently wealthy and GROWW does not pay for my trips, so I use my vacation days and my own money.  I only say this to clear up any misconceptions that people may have about how we use GROWW money.  Right now we have a small surplus in our checking account, we’re saving this for more brochures to be printed.  We use it to pay the monthly expenses such as our website, verisign and americart so people can use charge cards to purchase merchandise and make donations.  We pay to have the shirts and mugs and totes and mouse pads to be made then the proceeds after the cost of goods is put back into the GROWW account so we can order more items.  Members of GROWW donated the Ornaments, which are really beautiful, in full.  We also have a member who mails most of our merchandise for us for free so GROWW doesn’t have to incur the shipping charge, when it has to be mailed from Georgia GROWW does pay the shipping charges.  For those of who donate THANK YOU, for those of you are thinking about donating, I hope some of the info above will help you in making your decision about donating.  We are a 501c corporation and any donation is tax deductible, for merchandise, it’s a little trickier, but feel free to write and I can tell you exactly how much is tax deductible after a purchase.

I got an email the other day and I thought I would share it with you all.  There have been so many newbies with such raw pain and so many wonderful members who are having anniversaries; I thought I would send along something to think about.  School is starting soon, for some of us, it’s the first time our kids won’t be on the school bus, our hearts go out to those of you who have lost a child.  To the parents left to raise their children alone who are putting their kids on the school bus alone for the first time, we are with you in spirit as is your loved one.  There are so many of us out there who have to go on and continue on and something as little as school starting again can bring all of your pain back to the surface, most people and friends won’t even think of that as something that may be upsetting, but here at GROWW we do.  Please remember to lean on us; we are always here for you.

Living

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one, which has been opened for us. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way.  The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

 The number of breaths we take does not measure life, but by the moments that take our breath away.  Our loved ones are always with us.

Until next month…Good Grief

Anne

Meet Your Host – GRHostTeresaK



Teresa has been hosting in GROWW for just a few months now, but she has been a member since she found us in September 2000.  Her husband, Joe, passed away in October 1999, several months after he received a pancreas transplant.  An Ohio native, she lives there with her now six year old son, Rick.  A typical little boy, Rick loves riding his bike, catching fireflies, playing with Hot Wheels and watching cartoons.  Teresa and Rick have a dog, Brutis, and two cats, Ellie and Queenie

Currently looking for full time employment, Teresa works for a local car dealership in a clerical position.  On her days off she enjoys spending time with Rick, and working in her garden. Her current project is a perennial flower garden, which is comprised of cuttings from her mother and aunt’s gardens.

Teresa believes that she is surviving the loss of Joe with the help of her faith in God.  GROWW "has been very instrumental in seeing me through the lonely nights and helping me realize that what I was feeling and going through was quite normal".  And of course, having a young child to raise has given her a reason to go on with her life and raise Rick the way Joe would have wanted her to. 

When asked what is her advice to someone just starting to walk this path of grief, Teresa responded "I tell them that this is a journey that will not be over anytime soon.  It is a long walk and they need to keep moving.  It is alright to sit down once in awhile and take a break (pity party), but you have to pick yourself up and keep on moving, you cannot wallow in it or you will never get through it.  That you will never really get over it, but that you will learn to cope with it.  I also express that we were left here on this earth for a reason, and  that it is now up to us to find out why - and that is part of the journey".
Teresa hosts in GFW on Mondays and  in the main GR room on Wednesday and Friday evenings.  We are very pleased to have her in our very special family of hosts.

Message from the Director of Branches - Libby Morningstar

 

 

Good August to all.  Welcome to GROWW for all our new friends, and HI to all who have found this to be just about the best place you never wanted to be.  GROWW is a very unique site.  As many can tell you coming to a chat site can be difficult at first. You are trying to follow the conversations, trying to respond, you are filled with emotions at your own sadness as well as others, but once you allow yourself to become part of this great group of people you do in fact become addicted.  Who else better to understand your sorrow than people who have experienced a death of a loved one.  It is also a proven fact as many found out in July in Michigan, that real hugs are wonderful and to meet face to face is the best. 

 

We have many wonderful chat rooms/message boards/reference pages/HELP GROWW (our place where you can give back if you so choose) that are available to you 24/7.  Again, take the time to really investigate our site.  WE do have a way of becoming a huge family and want you to feel apart of this very special experience.  I know it has helped me over the years and I would like it to do the same for you.  See the Chat Index and Site Map to move around within GROWW.  It is a great tool.   

 

Be good to YOU.

Guest Columnist Holly

 

Howdy!  My name is Holly, I’m 20 years old and reside in Texas.  I think most of you all know me by now.  I lost my sister Megan, age 21, on December 10, 1995 in a car accident.  She and my brother in law, James, had gone to do some shopping and meet up with some friends on December 9th.  On their way home, just 5 miles from town, James fell asleep at the wheel and when he awoke he overcorrected the wheel causing their vehicle to go across the median, the southbound lanes and then rolling coming to rest on the passenger’s side.  Megan was asleep and was ejected from the vehicle and died due to massive head injuries, she was not wearing her seatbelt.  James suffered minor injuries.  6 days after Megan died and 4 days after the funeral I turned 13.  My birthday and Christmas of 1995 were the most difficult of all.  It was my first birthday and first Christmas without her and the first time I wasn’t sure of what was to come in my life.  I went through a long period of survivor’s guilt.  My whole life and all that I knew had been turned upside down and inside out.  I didn’t know what was going to happen to me all I knew is that I had become this bitter person and stayed this way until I found GROWW.  When I found GROWW I had just passed the 5 year mark of Megan’s death and had not even began to deal with it.  I came into GROWW as this bitter person that never thought that life was going to get any better.  I have been at GROWW for over 2 ½ years now and I have learned that life does get better.  I remember I would get so infuriated with people when they would tell me it takes time.  I despised that four letter word and at times would leave because I didn’t want to hear it, but I always came back.  Everyone understood how I felt and had been where I was.  GROWW has been my lifeline and has taught me that this is doable and that if you really want to heal that you can and you will.  I have made so many great friends and I have learned a great deal from everyone.  When my uncle died on July 17, 2002 due to injuries sustained in a car accident, the people at GROWW were there to comfort me and help me through it.  And when my cousin completed suicide on October 10, 2002 the people at GROWW were once again there to help me through it.  My friends at GROWW have taught me that life is livable and have shown me what strength and courage are really about.  My life is back on track now and I am learning to live again.  I now continue to go to GROWW not only to help myself heal but to help others heal as well.  If I can make someone smile or laugh then my job is done.  If I can comfort someone in their time of need and let them know that I care then my job is done.  I am forever in debt to those in GROWW for helping me to realize that I can live my life again and for showing me the way.  It is now my turn to help others as I have been helped.  I have learned that when we don’t think we can go on those in GROWW will help us to continue on.  I have also learned that writing has helped me through some of the worst times in my life.  I am able to express my emotions in a positive way.  I have looked back on my journals and my poetry and have seen how far I have come and how much I have healed.  Healing isn’t something we can see and at times it’s something that we cannot feel, but you know that you are healing when you smile for the first time or you laugh for the first time.  I have also found peace in making a website for Megan.  It is still being added to.  Learn about Megan at www.geocities.com/lady_eagle_2401/megan.html  I am also a very strong advocate for stricter safety belt laws not only in Texas but for all states.  While in high school I was a part of a group of students that went to schools in our area and spoke about wearing seat belts and how they save lives.  To get the word out and share my story has not only helped me heal but has, I hope, helped to make young drivers aware that if they themselves are in a wreck that wearing their seatbelt might save their lives and the lives of others that may be in the car with them.  I have grown and learned many things from my sister’s death but most of all I have learned that no matter what Megan is forever in my heart and is forever my sister.  I know Megan is proud of the person I have become so far and the person I will become and is smiling down upon me right now and saying, “Way to go kiddo!”  We are not promised tomorrow, live your life day to day and don’t take things for granted, for they may not always be there.  Remember to live, laugh, and love because that is what they would want us to do.

Phil’s Corner - Phil D’Ambrosio

 

 

          If you’re like me you probably heard a lot of those old sayings growing up as a kid, I used to roll my eyes and say to myself “that sounds like its been around since the beginning of time” Well, guess what, some of em are……….

 

          Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and men, then the women and finally the children-last of all the babies. By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it. Hence the saying, "Don't throw the baby out with the bath water."

 

          Houses had thatched roofs-thick straw-piled high, with no wood underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the dogs, cats and other small animals (mice, bugs) lived in the roof. When it rained it became slippery and sometimes the animals would slip and fall off the roof. Hence the saying "It's raining cats and dogs."

 

          The floor was dirt. Only the wealthy had something other than dirt.

Hence the saying "dirt poor."

 

          The wealthy had slate floors that would get slippery in the winter when wet, so they spread thresh (straw) on the floor to help keep their footing. As the winter wore on, they kept adding more thresh until when you opened the door it would all start slipping outside. A piece of wood was placed in the entranceway. Hence the saying a "thresh hold."

 

          In those old days, they cooked in the kitchen with a big kettle that always hung over the fire. Every day they lit the fire and added things to the pot. They ate mostly vegetables and did not get much meat. They would eat the stew for dinner, leaving leftovers in the pot to get cold overnight and then start over the next day. Sometimes the stew had food in it that had been there for quite a while. Hence the rhyme, "Peas porridge hot, peas porridge cold, peas porridge in the pot nine days old."

 

          Way back in Merry Old England whenever they could obtain pork they would hang it up to show it off, which made them feel quite special. It would impress visitors when they came over. It was a sign of wealth that a man

"could bring home the bacon." They would cut off a little to share with guests and would all sit around and "chew the fat."

 

          Bread was divided according to status. Workers got the burnt bottom of the loaf, the family got the middle, and guests got the top, or "upper crust."

 

 

 

          England is old and small and the local folks started running out of places to bury people. So they would dig up coffins and would take the bones to a  "bone-house" and reuse the grave. When reopening these coffins, 1 out of 25 coffins were found to have scratch marks on the inside and they realized they had been burying people alive. So they thought they would tie a string on the wrist of the corpse, lead it through the coffin and up through the ground and tie it to a bell. Someone would have to sit out in the graveyard all night, the "graveyard shift", to listen for the bell; thus, someone could be "saved by the bell" or was considered a "dead ringer."

 

          New England chicken farmers discovered that chickens born in the spring bought better prices, rather than old birds that had gone through the winter. Sometimes farmers tried to sell the old birds as new spring born chickens. Smart buyers often complained that a tough fowl was “no spring chicken” and so the term now is used to represent birds (and even people) past their plump and tender years.

 

          It’s a right handed world (sorry Anne) let’s face it. In the ancient world, the left side of the body or anything “left” was considered sinister, mysterious, dangerous or evil. So innkeepers pushed the left sides of the bed against the wall so that the guest HAD to get up on the right side. Today, with King & Queen beds, most people get up on either side and don’t bother to think about it. But the term today of “getting up on the wrong side of the bed” refers to someone who is irritable or clumsy.

 

          Well folks, I leave you with the immortal words of Steven Wright who said’ “The early bird may get the worm but, it’s the second mouse who gets the cheese”.

See ya next month…………….

         

 

 

 

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Recipes From Members

 

 

Swiss Vegetable Medley

 

  16 oz Pack of Frozen Broccoli, Cauliflower and Carrots (Thawed & Drained)

  2.8 oz Can of Durkee/Frenchs Fried Onions

  10 oz Can of Cream of Mushroom soup

  1/3 Cup of Sour Cream

  6 oz Swiss Shredded Cheese

  Pepper

 

Mix veggies, soup, sour cream, pepper, 2/3 of onions and 2/3 of cheese.  Bake covered at 350 for 35 minutes.  Top with remaining onions and cheese.  Bake for another 5 minutes uncovered.

 

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